Comedic Value Cures All!!

Pulled Pork going….check

Breakfast for kids….check
Cake mess clean…...check
3 gal sweet tea....….check

A momma who does what needs to be done….PRICELESS!!
 

This was a text message that I sent to my husband on Sunday morning after he left at 730 for church and I stayed home to get everyone else ready to be there about 1030. My original plan of coarse was to go and lay back down and enjoy the peace and quiet if even for only half an hour. Well my 6 year old and 1 year old changed that plan 5 minutes after the hubby left.

 So I figure “since I’m up I may as well get a few things done”. It amazes me that even with six kids under foot how much more I get accomplished when the husband isn’t home, and it’s not that he isn’t any help, it just feels like I can move around so much faster and just do what I need to do.

 I have learned not to take the good days for granted. After accomplishing all that need to be done on Sunday morning it allowed for my husband to come home from church and just work on what he wanted to till it was time for Royal Rumble. By doing this my husband’s stress level is much lower meaning he isn’t snapping at kids or focusing on something that needs to be done. This helps reduce the onset of his headaches allowing him to just relax so that way he feels good enough to enjoy the special times.

 

Yes my husband is a big wrestling fan and he has spread the enthusiasm of wrestling to all the kids in the house. So when special pay per views comes on we make a family deal with it. I cook something I normally don’t and I spend most of my time serving everybody and making sure all is happy.

I cherish these moments especially when my husband wakes up the next day talking about the event (this is how I know he felt good and wasn’t having a headache during the event). I cherish them because it was a wonderful family night that my husband will remember and my kids will always remember that dad/Big Nate was in a good mood and there was fun.

I talk about this because when these moments aren’t taking place I have learned to laugh at some of the most ridiculous things. I feel that if I don’t laugh then one of these days I will be sent to a loony been from having a breakdown.

 God gives us laughter as a wonderful emotion that helps even the worst moments bearable and for that I thank him.

 

What a way to start the day!

So I sit here questioning where am I going wrong. Today we started with a headache episode around 5am. I was woken up by a loud thud sound only to find my husband beating his head against the wall again trying to deal with the pain. After giving him all his meds I then had to console him just so he could calm down enough to fall asleep. I keep asking what triggered this one, and what could we have done to prevent it. Unfortunetly there is no easy answer to these questions. I still have not quite come to terms that there sometimes are no triggers, it just is.

 I go through the moments at least once or twice a week and yet I thought we were getting better. Apparently I spoke to soon. I am beyond exhaustion due to lack of sleep lately, and I can’t let my husband see that because if I do then he will hide his pain from me as to not subject me to his problems. I tell him no matter what he must tell me so I know to monitor him and determine whether he is fit to drive kids to school or to take care of the baby.

I have these days where I just want to curl up in a corner and make the world disappear but unfortunately life is too busy for me to have those moments. The last time I really got some free time with no hubby/kid involvement was about 5 months ago when I took a weekend trip to go see my uncle for the last time before he passed away. It was a wonderful trip but I was constantly wanting to check in on my family to make sure my husband was feeling ok.

I hope and pray that by doing these blogs on a regular basis I can remove all the negative thoughts that jumble my brain and move forward with the positive thoughts of how much I love my husband and how proud I am of him and all he suffers through everyday.

This is my first time blogging so to all who see's this, please bear with me as it is under construction.